Here are a few things I've learned in my spiritual seeking, from being raised nominally Catholic, to being a devout Buddhist for a few years and then spending a significant amount of time pursuing the Left Hand Path at the Golden Lotus OTO in Garden Grove and in my own magickal practices. From being ordained as a lay monk in the Vedanta tradition in Hollywood to spending time among friends at the Buena Park Gurdwara. These things may or may not apply to your personal journey, so feel free to disregard what may or may not ring true to the path you're walking. But this is what I've gleaned about the nature of what you might call "God" on my journey so far. Take it or leave it.
You can't question your way out of Love and you can't deconstruct yourself into oblivion. Ask the questions. It is seeking you as much as you are seeking It. Even right now, It is reaching out to you.
We are, all of us, prodigal children, with zero exceptions. We are beloved - though we may wander in our own ways, seeking replenishment, and beauty and some kind of hope within this grand mystery - we are fully loved and beloved.
Many of us will find our way out of the path in which we were raised. It takes a certain amount of courage to leave the safe confines of the familiar and all that comes with it, but leaving familiar territory doesn't mean reckless meandering, and having questions and doubts does not mean a total extinction of curiosity, wonder or faith. Don't fall for their insistence that you have somehow strayed. You are right where you need to be.
As a matter of fact, it is precisely during this wandering that our doubt and despair can lead us toward a more beautiful resurrection than we ever thought possible. Even when it feels like the familiar may be lost and our next steps may be unsure, please know deep down in your heart: You're always deeply loved. You've never been forgotten. And, whether you believe it right now or not, all your wandering can lead you Home.
Can you hear It calling you?
