I know stress and worry can take a tremendous toll on some of us. Please try to relax. Take a deep breath once in a while. I know it all seems important, but we are just a sack of old ocean animals clinging to our coral bones, looking for a very complicated way to entertain ourselves.
There is no purpose we are given. Meaning and purpose must be created. So try not to become too overwhelmed by the messiness along the way. You are beautifully human. Have a little fun with it. Explore the territory. Play it for laughs. Find out who you are and then do what you dig and do it on purpose. Because this ride ends, y'all.