Tuesday, June 25, 2024

"What Holds Your Hope Together.."

I've come to reluctantly understand that most Americans are such committed inhabitants of the current moment that we tend to break out in hives if we can't reduce all previous epochs of history into neatly spliced multi-year chunks, in which a handful of visual and verbal and musical cliches come to represent those decades in their entirety. It seems as if we have become such insufferable children of this immediate impulse that we have begun to react to any art which demands anything beyond a cursory appreciation, let alone an immersion even one inch deeper than the surface, like someone has asked us to murder the reincarnation of our childhood puppy. 

With that being said, it's still rather perplexing to me that Adrian Borland's exquisitely wrought and idiosyncratic musical landscapes of the 1980's, which he recorded as the leader and songwriter of a band he aptly named The Sound, have achieved the posthumous gift of near complete and total cultural invisibility, while steaming horsepuck like Kajagoogoo still soundtracks the throwback 80's dance parties of unendurable, over-privileged 30-year-old tinder addicts, who by some immeasurable miracle make even the Baby Boomers look like paragons of astuteness and wisdom. 

Try this: Tear your ever-deadening eyes away from your hand-held digital crack pipe, sit alone in a dark room with the moonlight shining through the window, even if it's at a third floor room at a semi-dilapidated motel in Modesto, and let the opening track from The Sound's "From The Lion's Mouth" album, "Winning," wash over you for the duration of its four minutes and eighteen seconds. Let it find its way into your skin. Let it show you the truth about who and what you are. Then, when you're done, when you finally understand, throw that fucking phone into the ocean. 

Friday, June 14, 2024

Keep Making The Stuff You Dig..

Make stuff from your heart. Mean it. Even if other people are going through shit around you, don't let it stop you. Keep creating. It's not your job to manage other people's unhappiness. Just fucking create. 




Saturday, June 8, 2024

Hibiscus Dreams

Trudging, albeit trepidatiously, deep into the belly of another forbidden beast, with only your fresh and fevered footsteps as my guide. 

But, as always, throbbing heart in hand, I jump into the cleansing fires of banality banishment; eyes on fingertips, wide open and searching. 

My legs shake, feet unsteady, drained of old life force by my red-assed Goddess, with bleeding teeth and a dark case of coffin burn. You sweetly pointed at the fresh grave of our mother in the furthest corner of the cave. 

Saturnal Sunwheel, with fresh hibiscus and a smile on her headstone. The tears began to slowly spill. 

"Your blood is only as sacred as those who feed on it," you reminded me. "You aren't obliged to love someone just because they have chosen to value you."

The stars start to sing a low, ancient moaning song and begin to bleed into the black velvet curtains of space. 

It's raining salty hibiscus red blood from the heavens and we open our mouths to drink of it. 

Professing myself to be wise, I look ever more the fool. 

Stained with the wet, sacred insides of the spilling stars, I saw through the mirror and lost all remaining faith in your apocalypse and smirked at your transcendent telemarketing scheme. 

The Earth is a cemetery. We are graves with pussies, legs and cocks. 

Your sacred symbols are death totems you no longer know how to decipher. 

Your uniforms are burial shrouds you no longer know how to stitch and weave.

I taste your sweet, stinging, nervous sweat. 

Acheron, the river of woe, is overflowing and your feet will forever be wet with it. 

And now, you can walk anew.

Spreading and weaving and sewing and seeing; spewing pieces of ourselves into the web of reality, singing out of true names, of faceless and fearless love. 

Eternally now - it is the moment of our gracious abandon and greatest sacrifice. 

The moment of creation. 

The moment of rebirth.

The moment you became.

The moment you remembered.